Missing the touch of our loved one

Yearning for physical contact with the deceased is not limited to partner loss. After the death of a parent, sibling or child, the desire to touch and be touched by our loved one remains—yet we seldom mention it. Why? And what exactly are we missing, and how can we compensate for it?

The following are a few of the comments you may have received from genuinely caring people after the death of your loved one:

• “At least they are no longer suffering.”
• “You are strong, you’ll get through this.”
• “The Lord had another plan for them.”
• “You are young; you’ve got a lot of life to live.”
• “It is good that you didn’t have children together.”
• “It is good that you had children together.”
• “You were lucky to have had so many years together.”
• “It was such an ordeal, now you can move on.”
• “I know how you feel. I…”
• “You were lucky to have had such a happy marriage.”
• “You have plenty of time, you will have more children.”
• And if a pet has died, “You will get over this. The best thing you can do is get another dog.”

NPR Radio Series On Being: Contemplating Mortality

This week Krista Tippett interviews Dr. Ira Byock, physician, early advocate for hospice and author of several books focused on end of life issues. Byock talks about his maturing view of death and his evolving belief that we need to get back to accepting death as more than a medical experience.

Other topics explored in the interview:

• Death is not usually a medical mistake.
• Dying isn’t simply to be suffered; rather it is a gritty difficult unwanted vulnerable and valuable human experience.
• We need to understand the distinction between healing and curing, and that a person can be well as they die.
• If we can be present with the dying experience of another, we are sharing a sacred experience.
• The four most important sentences in any language are:
  • “I forgive you.”
  • “ Please forgive me.”
  • “Thank you.”
  • “ I love you.”

Listen to the full 51 minute interview.

I often hear my clients say: “Why should I care about my health when I’m not sure I care to live?”

Because I am asking you to care, that’s why. And, further, I want you to agree to something else as well.

I can hear the pushback: “I no longer have a sense of purpose, little matters, nothing motivates me, I can’t move and I have lost my appetite”

Yes, and you are most likely numb and disoriented as well. Understand that I am not going to ask you to get motivated or reconnect to life.

Performer Satori Shakoor talks about how she came to life after her mother and son died within a 9-month period.

This post features one of the live performances from NY’s McArthur Award-winning The Moth Series.  Some of the presentations take your breath away. Here is Shakoor’s story of loss told through the lens of humor.

“Wearing my father’s coat. He has died. I didn’t like him, but I wear the coat.”

The poet, Marc Smith, delivers his poem “Wearing My Father’s Coat” in the video below. It is a surprisingly honest commentary on the kind of ambivalent grief many of us experience after the death of a parent.

Have you ever said to yourself, “I hated it when my mother (or dad) did such and such” and yet you find yourself “wearing their coat?”

Why do we emulate what we disliked about a parent? Best answer: because our early life depended upon it. The truth is your parents’ life strategies and perspectives needed to be “right” – and remain unquestioned – in order for you to feel safe as a child.

But you are now grown up.

The role of anti-depressants

Contemporary society is addicted to speed, and sometimes I find I am just as bad as the next person. Unfortunately our current addiction doesn’t just encompass such things as fast computers, fast food and fast trains. It also includes fast grief.

The need for fast grief, which usually means medicated masked grief, is becoming the norm. My concern is that medically masking, delaying, or bypassing the grief process will only increase the likelihood of serious clinical depression later.